i am plinplan!

dear all readers,

apa kalian tahu kalo si penulis blog yg satu ini adalah org yg paling plinplan di seluruh dunia. haha. yeaa i am plin plan. :( That isn't good thing for me and for all of you too. cuma yg namanya human nature haha. oke end of this topic! what i want to discus with you all are.. my own christmas night!

i wish i have my christmas present, yg berupa barang. i miss my last year present. semua yg gw dapet gw yg pilih dan itu dikasi sama my mom and dad.. 5 sweater, 2 jackets, 1 cute wallet, a pair of shoes and 1 ipod. seandainya taon ini gw dapet barang yg mirip.. haha. (berharap)

hem, semalem ada org sms gw, (pastinya org. krn anjing gak bakalan bisa sms), dia sms gw something sweet tapi terdengar gombal, dan yeaa itu berhasil bikin gw kepikiran. haha. terlalu banyak yg pengen gw tanyain, dan akibatnya karena sepanjang malem gw pikirin.. tdr gw gak nyenyak.. mata gw berasa beraat banget trus badan gw pegel semua dan penyakit lama gw kumat (pala yg berasa di injek sama gajah). gw gak ngerti apa yg dia mw. haha. anyway.. gw baru sadar skr. ternyataa gw bnr" org yg super cuek. idc w/ everyone around me. gw lebi care ke diri gw sendiri. jarang gw bisa care sama org. apa bisa ada org yg deal sama org kyk gw? lagian, part of care sama org itu merupakan the hardest part buat gw. cukup gw pusing sma diri gw sendiri. rite?

sound so selfish.

ouu ngomong" soal christmas present, gw dapet present dari hujan! haha.

1. PETIR!

2 BANJIR di kamar gw! (atep gw bocor LAGI!) great!

akhirnya malem ini gw tdr tanpa kenyenyakan! and santa never come to me :( i miss santa soo badly. will he come in tonight?

anyway HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!

love.hug.kisses. ms.hopefuladdict

what is anything that pops up in your mind?

PEOPLE!! "what is anything that pops up in your mind?"

haha. pertanyaan yg aneh! karena.. pada saat lu ditanya apa yg sedang lu pikirkan.. lu akan mikirin semuanya.. pas lu di tanya apa yg sedang gak lu pikirkan, otomatis lu jd memikirkannya. yep dan, gw mw membahas itu!

apa yg saat ini ada di pikiran gw adalah..

1. gimana caranya gw nulis blog..

yepp. karena saat ini gw sedang nulis blog makanya gw memikirkan itu.. then..

2. sebuah status pada saat gw buka fb org dan.. itu related banget sama apa yg terjadi kemaren. dan gw terus-terus kepikiran apa maksudnya. padahal seharusnya gw gak.

3. kenapa gw musti tulis message ke dia? well, personal message. stupid yet genius. haha. mungkin karena gw berpikir untuk mencoba jujur kali yah? tapi gw sudah mencoba. maksud gw kan bukan kita musuhan rite? we still friend. but only friend

4. gw gak mw suka sama cowo! belom boleh suka! belom boleh punya feel. get it lost first.. and when the time come.. its okay!

5. hari ini bokap gw b'day, dan hari ini gw ngeliat ngkonya bokap gw di ruma sakit.. LAGI!

6. gw pengen lupain org tapi susah banget, semua jadi complicated! BANGET!

7. sejak kapan gw suka pake eyeliner?

8. kenapa satu keluarga gw bilang kalo gw mirip kelly chen and gw mirip org jpg? gak bisa apa mirip kyk sesuatu yg laen? misalnya.. miss universe 1988 *loh*

9. sejak kapan gw bisa suka sama org aneh? well, emank kyknya gw selalu suka sama org aneh. hahaha. no offense, tapi kenyataan.

10. kenapa pas gw bilang gw mw 'over it' gw masi nyari" dia? gw masi berharap dia bls sms gw? gw masi berharap dia onlen? argh! padahal gw tw kalo dia cuma maenin gw. dia gak bakalan serius sama org kyk gw.

11. bisa gak yah gw jd dokter? nilai" gw gmana yah? kalo tar gw dah jd dokter dan gw mw jd pekerja sosial.. di bantai gak yah sama papi?

12. pengen si oliv cepet" disini. butuh teman bermain!

dan.. masih banyak lagi.. gila! padahal pertama" yg gw pikirin itu cuma gmana cara nulis blog, and everything pops up! WOW! haha, sound stupid.

anyways.. manusia gak bakalan pernah berhenti berpikir unless you are dead. karena kita tidur aja kita masih berpikir! being human is so damn tiring!

love.hug.kisses.ms hopefuladdict

ps: the reason why i said i'm ms.hopefuladdict is because..., gw gak akan pernah berhenti berharap dan itu akan membuat gw ketagihan. well.., bukan cuma gw. tapi semua org. :)

nites dear.

new beginning!

HEY PEOPLE! good morning! :) wish you all have nice sleep and you don't get insomnia. haha.

hari ini gw mw curhat, sedikit!

hari ini gw bnr" nangis. nangis sejadi"nya. karena keputusan. keputusan yg udah gw buat. he's not calling me, at all. then.. God wins! all i have to do is surrender everything.

i told him everything that pops up in my mind. i told that i just don't want to get too serious with somebody. but it just too late.. i love him.. i like him.. perasaan ini cukup bikin gw kehilangan dan bikin gw nangis. perasaan yg baru kali ini gw rasain. jujur. gw sendiri kaget sama diri gw sendiri. dan gw kaget dengan keputusan gw. tapi.. ini maksudnya

he deserve better and i'm deserve better.

gw melakukan hal itu bnr" cuma buat bikin gw kuat dan sanggup ngadepin semua sendirian, pikiran gw fokus dan gak terbagi". i know i'm stupid. but thats me!

people.. i do have my own reasons.. and it is lot!

don't tell me that what i'm done is wrong.. karena gw dah pikirin ini cukup lama. :)

nites dear. get enough sleep and get much energy.

love.hug.kisses.ms hopefuladdict

ps: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR ALICE PATRICIA, MY DEAR GRANDFATHER, AND MY DEAR DADDY, who always gonna be my precious man!

what did you think about me?

1. who am i in your mind?

2. when you looked at me, what did you think?

3. who am i in your life?

4. did i ever mean something in your life?

5. what is job that suited me the best?

just fill on that question. i just need answer. karena gw bnr" bingung apa yg hrs gw lakukan. pls isi ++ jawab and.. sertai nama.. thanks.. :)

the secret revealed!!

People.. Happy holiday guys! happy freedom! Haha. Jumat kemaren adalah hr terakhir gw exam!. Dan hr itu bnr" bikin cpe banget! Trigono! Bayangin! Itu trigonometri! Hiks. Gw gak tw gw bakalan dpt berapa.. Krn itu bnr" susaa banget! Cuma yah asik ajh ngerjain trigono. Haha.

Jd.. Hr senin itu gw em sama agama.. Em, pastinya gw gak bisa. Krn gw remed. selasa, kimia sama eng.. Kimia gw lolos tp gak tw dpt berapa. At least gw bisa. Trus rabu, fisika sama pkn.. Fisika itu bnr" ngeselin bngt loh! Gw cuma bisa no 1 donk.. No 2-3 yg seharusnya gw bisa.. Malahan gw gak kelar ngerjainnya. Damn! Kamis.. Biologi dan bahasa. Bio.. Hem okelah.. Trus bahasa.. Hahahah! Gw dah ngantuk banget! Parah! Dan terakhir trigono.. No comment dh.

oke.. So wht did you thought about my mark? Haha. I hate math! Forever and always.. Always will and always have!

Well, pray for me and my mark.. I need to get a good mark. Krn gw dah berusaha yg terbaik. Bnr" gw dah blajar! Sedih banget gila! Kalo mkrin itu gw stress ndiri.

Hem, td pas di jln pulang dr sun city..(Bis kondangan), my mami cerita.. Kalo tante temennya, anknya.. Di perkosa di kolong jembatan sama 5 tukang bangunan. Sepulang dr kantor, sktar jem 6an lwt gtu. And.. Tkp-nya! Di konstruksi cengkareng sana. Yg lg bikin tol itu. And u know what I've thought?!

"I HATE BOYS! I HATE MEN! THEY ARE MONSTRS WHO CAN'T CONTROL THEIR SELF WHEN THEY'RE SAW A GIRL! EVEN THE GIRL STILL WEARING THEIR CLOTCHES! OMG WHAT ARE THEY GONNA DO WHEN THEY SAW THE NUDE ONE? "

Why God doesn't give man boobs, vagina, and penis?! So they won't make any prostitution.. Or free sex that could causing civilis, HIV, hepatitis b, and any other disease.

Well, guys.. While you read this post, I'll bet you've been disagree with me. Tapi jujur ini dr ht yg terdalam. Gw benci banget sama cowo!! Di otaknya cuma ada porn! And porn.. Nothing else!

Hem, gw lg gambling ama GOD. Soal gw hrs lupain dia ato gak. Kalo emank gw gak blh lupain dia.. Dia akan baca post ini dan dia merasa bahwa dia org yg gw akan lupain, dan dia akan ngo sama gw. What ever it is. Tp kalo gw mank hrs lupain dia.. Dia gak bakalan ngo apa" tentang blog ini. Then, waktunya itu 1mgg dr skr. Kalo bnr hrs lupain.. Gw pasti akn lupain. Krn I know.. I'm not a better person that suits his dream. Because I'm me.. And no one else.

Well, good nite readers.
Hug, love, and kiss..